Like I legitly liked you, I thought I would be able to open my heart up 1 more time jus for you cuz I had faith I could make it work out.. I heard soo many things about you, and I still gave you a chance and had hope for there to be an us. I straight up chose to not listen and ignore everything people were saying about you.
Do you know how hard it was to go against what my friends were telling me? I went against their words, jus cuz I was intrested in you. I knew it would be hard cuz you were in love with one of my good friends, but I still went for it. And after awhile I actually liked you a lot, I would of given you the world and more. Hell I would of even given you my heart, that’s how much I liked you.
But it made me soo fucken happy when you told me you liked me to, and that’s what got my hopes up even more, and then we started talking more and more and then when I actually have the confidence to try to ask you out on a date, you tell me your excuse and say your gona be busy with friends, school and resting all this weekend. And then I ask you to be straight up with me about everything, and now you flipped the script on me and tell me you don’t like me and you don’t see us together? You know how bad that fucken hurt me? I felt my heart sink and my heart fucken ached. I would of done so much for you, I would of treated you better than anyone has ever treated you.
And you jus told me what you had planned to do today, and you jus so happen to miss the school you said you had and you were gona party tonight, instead of rest up. And that’s why we couldn’t go to the movies tonight. You told me a complete lie jus so you wouldn’t have to go to the movies with me.
But in the end I was jus being played and you were the master hand controling my emotions, and my heart is still aching like a fucken bitch. It hurts like hell, even while I’m typing thing. So I hope you feel fucken proud that you lead on and played a nice guy that’s already lost hope in love and that’s been hurt by a number of girls and felt like he’s hit rock bottom. But you will never have or experience what I have felt. You may say you have but you honestly won’t…
and I hope you know this goes out to you Jessa.. You made me have hope for you, and now all there is a heart that’s torn to shreds and a lot of lonelyness and heart breaking agony.
I really wish I could drink or smoke right now jus to get everything off my mind, even tho I know it won’t solve anything, it’ll jus take the pain away for a bit..
I love when people talk to me and ask me this, it shows how much they care about you. They take their time out of their day to talk to you and ask how have you been. I rather have conversations like this. Asking how are they, how was their day and ect. Especially those people who you lost contact with, asks you this. Since they’ve been out of your life for a while, it’s nice of them to ask you this.
Sorry what?Guys always need to hit up the girl 1st?Is that some kind of rule or something because I find that full of shit.Honestly,Girls while your sitting waiting for him to text you.Your wasting your time waiting because hes probably thinking the same.He probably thinks your talking to someone better or hes annoying/bothering you.Just text him 1st instead it doesn’t hurt to try to start the conversation.