I really don’t think you realize how much better my life is with you in it and it’s scary cause it feels like you’re the only thing that really keeps me happy these days. Some other things make me happy, but it’s really only temporary. To be honest, knowing I have you is the real reason why I’m always in such a good mood. And the thought that I can lose all that.. yeah it scares the fuck out of me.
it means that my feelings for you are starting to adjust. I’m getting comfortable around you that I could call you names, diss you a few times; ‘cause I’m starting to get used to you. I hope you won’t take it personal, because you know that I won’t hurt your feelings or ever be disrespectful towards you. It doesn’t make sense, but this is a way for me to show you that I’m starting to get attached to you.
All I can do is crush. Do you know how much it hurts when you talk about another guy? You blog about him. You tweet about him. Enough is enough. I give up. I honestly wanted to ask you out. But looks like that it was never meant to be.
Im starting to lose hope in my family ever being there to support me in anything! And the word “brother” means nothing to me anymore!
Thanks to how he’s treated me, i feel like im nothing and im never gonna be good enough for anything! I HATE myself because of him! You dont know how its felt to me verbaly and emotionaly abused everyday my life! I cry myself to sleep a majority of my nights when im in bed… Because of the way hes treated me, Ive honestly wanted to kill myself since i was 13…..
Ive been told too manythings already and i realy do think im a worthless peice of shit that wont accomplish anything… Like i honestly thought about killing myself tonight, that thoughts been racing through my head for the last 30 mins..
I swear i just need someone to talk to that actuaslly cares….. maybe..
Maybe its better to let you do your own thing.. Maybe its better to give you space and forget about me, like everyone else has too.. I thought you were different and wouldn’t let your pride get in the way, but I was wrong.. You seem happier without me, while I’m feeling miserable on the inside.. I try not to show it as much, but its killing me deep down inside.. But what can I do? All I can really do is distance myself from you.. & thats exactly what I’m going to do..